updates

i have some very sad news. cassady got sick again and we took her to the vet last thurs. for tests and they didn't really find anything to explain the tremendous weight loss and the constant gagging so they hydrated her and sent her home on friday. friday night she was still gagging and unable to eat and then same on sat. so the boss said that she was just suffering and we didn't want her to starve to death so we had to have her put to sleep. it was one of the saddest days of my life. i am tearing up just thinking about it. she was a great cat. very sweet and super affectionate, esp. since she recovered the first time. that is what sucks the most. that she did such a good job getting better the first time. although honestly i don't think she was ever eating that much the whole time.

and about the boys. we did not take christopher. just the baby. because of the cluster fuck that is dss we could not in good conscience rip him away from the only mother he has know for over a year of his two years on earth. dss did not have any problem with the idea. freaks.

dominic is doing well. he is gaining weight although this week he did not gain enough and the doctor put him back on the special formula. we do have concerns about his vision and will be seeing a neurologist in a few weeks. hopefully they will know something. and now i have convinced myself that maybe he can see but he has cp. he is kind of floppy and jerks his arms around like that guy on last comic standing. and i keep thinking that is all well and good for josh blue but what if dominic isn't funny? lol if you don't find the funny in all this you will go nuts. so anyone who is going "what the hell is wrong with her" should just come by and spend the day at this asylum and see what you find funny after awhile. seriously it is like a freak show here most days.

we had the boys tested at the franciscan hospital for children. alex was tested by a psychologist, speech and language and physical therapy. he will probably have to start taking adhd med. i didn't want to face it but his behavior is affecting his safety and now with the baby we can't deny it any longer. and he is mildly mentally retarded. which we already knew so that wasn't a big surprise.

the surprise came with nick's testing. he is not mentally retarded. we don't have the report yet but the psychologist was adament about that and wanted to know who told us he was. so many people that it is hard to figure out who said what exactly. but who cares because that is very good news.

i have had many freak encounters lately at work but i have to get going now. i will post again soon.