Can't believe it has been over three months since I have written.

It is certainly not for the lack of freaks in the world and esp. in my small part of the world.

To go into more detail about the dss freaks---they are ridiculous. We weren't good enough to get Nick and Alex's little brother Christopher--maybe the gay thing maybe not. maybe the genetic condition of the boys maybe not. the boss says no on both counts and says i judge people. of course i judge people. always have always will. if you are a freak i will judge you a freak, if you are good people i will judge you good people. what is wrong with that? nothing
Last friday we found out that N and A's mom had the 6th baby 5 weeks premature and did we want christopher? what the fuck? we wanted him for the past 15 months and then decided since they waited so long and he was in a good home and had bonded with the lady for over a year and she wanted to adopt him, that we would not push anymore and let her have him. if she decided she didn't want him then we would take him. but now suddenly we are being offered christopher. and why you might ask. are we less gay, hell no. but now they have a perfect little baby and it will be easier to find a home for him. so now we are good enough for the toddler. and in the next breath, they say well, ...... had the baby and we wanted to know if you want him. what the double fuck? now not only are we good enough and smart enough but dss likes us.

technically this is a foster care placement because they haven't terminated parental rights yet. so the technical goal is reunification. what the triple fuck? just because they couldn't take care of the first FIVE, why not give them a chance to mess with the SIXTH. FREAKS

hopefully they will change the goal and change it fast. this is what the plan is, but i will believe it when i see it.

stay tuned tomorrow for the "freaks from work" post.